Catharsis for my Brain

So a few weeks ago, a friend of mine and I came across this hill at varsity. It’s sort of hidden away (not actually) but this place is magical. It overlooks the whole of Cape Town and you can literally see for miles.

It makes such a change from the hustle and bustle of the Jammie Plaza and actually gives you some peace and quiet in between lectures.

Today, a whole host of my friends, from different lectures/riding/music/long-time friends all met there and we just chilled and rolled down the hill and joked around and it was actually really nice.

I am so glad to have these people in my life - their support for me has been magnificent and I honestly don’t know where I would be now without them.

Why are tattoos soooo expensive?

Ok I’m not really asking this- I know you have to pay for quality and stuff like that.

But at the moment, I can’t afford to get the tattoo I want :(

I need to work, I guess

Of course the ONE day I arrive at varsity and I see gorgeous gay-looking girls, I have a big cold-sore-gone-wrong infection on my lip and am dressed like a hobo.

That really sucks.

So last night, instead of studying for my Bio test, I rolled a joint and tried out my new stash. It was superb until my brother got home (I was alone in the house) and then I had to try act normal which was hysterically hard.

One thing I have noticed though is: weed makes me super horny. Like wow. I was paging through my dashboard and all these fantastically gorgeous girls popped up andwhatan effect they had.

What a pity that I don’t have anyone to get rid of that horniness with :(

Two more tests and then I can have my first joint since June. I finally got hold of my own stash.

It is quite sad that I spent that last few minutes rolling a joint instead of studying for a huge chemistry test tomorrow, which I NEED to do because of my lack-of-attention in lectures. Woops.

Also, the dreams I’ve been having for the last two nights have been SO sexual. I really need some love. Which is hard to do. Because I only have a toe out the closet. And I don’t know anyone who has taken the plunge. :(

ARG

So I’m really liking my new cartilage piercing that I got over the weekend…

It’s more me and I can’t wait to get another one, slightly lower down on my other ear. Will be nice to be a bit lopsided I think.

AND I can wear my riding helmet, which is what I was worried about.

My next Big Thing is my tattoo which I’m going to get at the end of August, after a jumping show I’m doing on the 25th. I have no idea how long it’ll be uncomfortable for and I don’t want to fuck up my chances at the show.

I’m quite excited.

Now I just need to fix my bloody wardrobe. I think I wear the exact same outfit to varsity every 3 days, barring undies and socks… woops.

I NEED MONEY!

Luckily I finished two of my weird articles tonight and will (hopefully) finish the rest tomorrow. R35 an hour is hardly anything but it’s at least MONEY! (it paid for my new piercing :D)

Today was a good-ish day. Yippy…

I should be studying for Physics right now.

But somehow, all the shit about charges and electric potential and stuff is NOT going into my brain.

BUT I DON’T CARE.

Life is a shamble right now.

The other night I had a dream that I met a girl called Aldehyde (an organic molecule?) and we got down and dirty. It was rather a nice dream.

So because I haven’t been on Tumblr a lot recently and haven’t been having my regular dose of BEAUTIFUL girls, I’m losing that feeling. The one which made me feel 100% gay. Maybe its the whole being-around-so-many-fucking-straight-people thing. Or the fact that the two girls who I have had STRONG feelings for turned me down.

Which just made me depressed.

And there’s someone really interested in me… And I don’t know what to do. When I was 100% sure I was straight, (a few years ago), I ‘liked’ him a lot. Then when he was a douche, I forgot about him. Now he’s back in the picture and I’m not sure if I like him or the attention.

Either way, my head is really fucked up. Beyond measure, I am starting to think. What a shame. I was destined for greatness.

So I see to have lost a few of what little followers I have because I haven’t posted a lot recently (i’m guessing). That kind of sucks :(